A Farewell Time

I never thought this day would come. The day where I hear you have moved on and found someone new. Someone better than me, someone who has the things you didn’t find in me. Someone who makes you happy and makes your heart skip a beat. The day I would have to say farewell to you. You found the person of your dreams, your soulmate, and your better half. I never thought this day would actually come, but sadly it has and I have to live with it.

I always thought we were meant for each other, and nothing would separate us but death. But I was wrong. We have both have gone our own ways, or should I say you drifted away without giving me any reasons why. You left me with no answers, and turned your back on me, leaving me heart broken, once again. You told me nothing but “no hard feelings.” How can you tell me no hard feelings, when you left no feelings in me?

You left no emotions in me. You ripped out my heart, you destroyed me. You completely killed me, I’m living but I’m dead. I’m holding myself on the outside, but on the inside I’m a dead person. I feel flames burning on the inside of me. I smile but my heart aches. I go out to have good time, but you’re constantly on my mind. I sleep and wake up thinking of you. I go to sleep crying myself reading our old conversations, looking at your pictures, and when I stand in front of you, I hold myself as if nothing is wrong with me or has ever been.

When we meet by chance, we don’t acknowledge each other as if we have never met before. For you, it means nothing, but sadly it’s tearing me apart. I honestly do not know how I’m going to continue with this. I do not know how or when I’m going to learn to accept the fact you have moved on and chose the one for you. I do not know how I’m going to sit back and watch you tie the knot and start a family with someone else. I do not know how I will get through all this.

I ask God to keep me strong and give me patience through all this. God did not will for me and you to be together, and I have to accept that. I have to learn that God did not choose you for me, and that there may be a reason for that. Even though I am terribly heart broken and devastated by this special news for you, I cannot be any happier for you, and from the bottom of my heart I wish you both a life full of happiness. You will always be very precious to me, and will always remain having a special place in my heart eternally. Good luck and best wishes!

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